Saturday, December 27, 2008


what i learned:
-awkward situations are only bad if you make them that way
-always give more than 1 gift, if possible
-my friends and loved ones really do know me and what i like
-it's so exciting to see people's reactions to gifts
-4 days off is so, so good
-don't plan too much, at all
-a day together can mean just talking, not doing much of anything
-christmas really shouldn't start in october, because i got sick of it by thanksgiving
-chill out, and everything will be okay <3

Friday, December 19, 2008

for mirna

found here

some more recent faves on deviantart:


bokeh for the soul

the forest is full of wolves

see my faves (i add about one a day) on deviantart here. my deviantart here, though i don't update my work that much.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

it's all words, no pics

the good thing is being able to feel like you don't belong, like you're not fitting in, not entirely, but not feeling bad about it either. not caring. but not in a way that's like, I don't care. more like a way of, meh, it's different, not good or bad. not feeling less or more. just different. just shifting a little. i wrote in my journal after that night, after 2 woodchucks and x amount of yuengling but before the migraine of dehydration the next day, i wrote (in awful handwriting), "why can't i have a pen attached to my head so i don't have to make my hands and eyes work for this? i'm calculating how many hours i've been awake, how much beer i've drank, what i've done all day, why i feel apathetic but why i care. why do i care? what do i care about? do i care, or is it just something to entertain me? do we do everything out of the desire to rid ourselves of boredom? ... what is this all? what is this? fuck wtf is this??"
i'm getting close to being done with all this christmas shopping, and i almost can't stop. i want to buy a million things for everyone. no 2 presents isnt enough, must have 3, 4, 5. i just want to buy everything for everyone and make eveyrone happy. that's all.

Thursday, December 4, 2008


current listen:

the vines, true as the night. ps--wedding song? preston's suggestion. it's a good live version here, except around the 2:23 mark, the guitarist does the ugliest thing with his voice. sounds like a baby doll saying "mama." pretty hilarious though.

current eats:

from good ol' tj's

current making people look:

the terrifyingly huge (but slow) coconut crab

Monday, December 1, 2008

christmas feels like tmrw

my christmas present from preston. yay! i gotta wait until christmas to get it though, which will be more fun i guess. check out that 10 mega pixels jaaaaunt.

i'm prob gonna get him a bunch of things, including ridiculous shirts:


Thursday, November 27, 2008

gobble gobble

hey, DON'T make that tart. it failed. and i followed the recipe! but do try this pie crust from pretty good! even for my first time trying it out.

happy thanksgiving! in honor, i'm going to copy/paste this email my bro got from a lady (he works tech support). first email starts off ok:

I don't have a clue what I am doing when I sync with another computer; I think Maryilyn still has home health for ____ in Houston;

anyway call me or email me with questions

I am going to sync what I have----whatever that may be

sounds normal right? her next email:



...riiight. final email:

Hal la luiah!!!! you get a day off; isn;t that great; I figured as much -- everyone will be too full to work!!!

actually maybe we can get together the 8 or 9; and I 'll see you at the annual; am looking forward to meeting you as we all are

Gobble Gobble

wonderful to have drunk emails at work. have a great holiday!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

lookin forward to...

holiday baked goods.

chocolate hazelnut tart. or as mirna says, hasselnuss! from can't wait to give it a try!

Monday, November 17, 2008

destroyed photographs

there's something, i don't know what it is, about photographs that are intentionally destroyed in some way. i remember the first time i ever realized it was possible. i was young, around 9 or 10 years old, and i was looking through a photography book. this was just the time i was starting to grow up, to be creative, to look at things through a different lens. i saw a picture that looked like it had been saved out of a burning building, edges curled and details nearly buffed away. i saw the little caption saying that the photographer "beat up" her photo negatives. i was in shock--you're allowed to do that? completely changed my outlook on art, and photography.

i found this photographer on deviantart today, and it caught me. these photos feel like fragments of dreams, what you're trying to hold onto when you wake up. not clear but not gone, either. there but very not there at all. it's the coming and going aspect that i think makes me look twice, three times.